Destiny

Its amazing how stuffs that you do and who that you are and who you look like defines you in this world but a massive part of these has absolutely nothing about you. How you look in this world has so much effect on things its not funny, but it literally has nothing to accomplish what your face looks like, its your parents fault the method that you are whether that be good or ad with your eyes. The way you sound defines who that you are and what you turn directly into. I just listened to a guy who had a great sounding voice for the radio reading out the news but he was created with a voice that appropriate radio. What if there was someone who really wished to do radio but there voice was no good, it wouldn’t matter how tricky they tried they wouldn’t contain the right type of voice to read out the news. Its just the same with people who want to get models, if they were not given the best body type they wouldn’t be allowed to be hired by anyone. But someone who is perceive to experience a beautiful face and becomes a billionaire because of the beautiful face didn’t do anything at all to deserve that face as someone who is perceived seeing that ugly didn’t do anything to be able to deserve that face. Perhaps once again we are required face and skills by this big dog upstairs in which to help you through what we are intended to learn in this life and at last find our purpose and learn the lessons we are meant to by being about this hurtling rock through space.

Mood Changes

My girlfriend’s mood changed a lot due to what the weather is outside. So when she pertains to Melbourne she often gets frustrated if its grey and damp and lets be honest I don’t believe it is that great either but I do believe that’s because of what it accustomed to represent when I was a youngster and what I was allowed to do. When it was grey and raining we weren’t allowed to play footy on the oval which may always make me so particularly sad and depressed.
As I have grown up and read a number of books and learnt things from my friends around me and my coach I've got come to realize that happiness is just a mental state so it must be up to me to come to a decision whether I’m happy or not, as opposed to what this weathers doing. This has helped with a lot things in my well being, this attitude I’m talking about, but now when I wake and the weathers not good it honestly doesn’t worry me a whole lot. It’s almost exciting when its raining now to me. I suppose though that blue sky since it always has makes me feel nice but I suppose in its own way that’s also annoying when you’re inside working that you’re not benefiting from the day. So I suppose the trick will be happy no matter what the weather of whatever is going on outside. Even when the sun is developed after it rains, that was always the most depressing for me growing up because doing so was like god was teasing one to go and kick the footy outside however, you couldn’t really. My friend is actually annoyingly good at being happy no matter what. I think that’s something I could truthfully learn from him.

Box Design

Its so funny to look at an i-phone box or any apple products because the logo is so shinny which is very appealing to the eyes but its interesting that makes you feel better or worse when you see something on a box that looks good but who decided that that’s what looks good? Why does something appeal to someone now and it never used to say 20 years ago. Its just other peoples opinions I suppose, or groups if people who decide that this is in now, or that’s in now, or this is in now. That influences all of us and our opinions without ever knowing it even. That is what I really enjoy about doing design at school was how it manipulates peoples brains without those people even knowing it. I suppose it’s a form of subliminal messaging which I have learnt is illegal to do in advertising and while that plays on peoples minds without them even knowing it I suppose in a way it’s a little more obvious unless you know what your looking for, and in the words of Bill Bailey I’ve done a lot of looking! I suppose that there’s layers and layer to everything and we are all being manipulated by our governments and cooperation’s all the time without us even knowing it, so I suppose we do put a lot of trust in these institutes which I don’t necessarily know is a good thing because things don’t have a great track record and by things I meant the military industrial complex. A lot of those people involved are with in the richest .001 percent of the world but they own the majority of the worlds wealth which is just so greedy by them.

Mush

Well it appears to be that I have come to the end of things I think I can write about which in essence when you have as broader topic as mine the sentence that I have just written which I have obviously not finished yet, sounds absolutely silly which is not great! So perhaps I should write about things that as I have mentioned previously will help me? Well that in itself is also a silly statement because everything I am writing and will write in some way will help me because I am discovering more about myself as I express things on the page even though at the current and present time I don’t know what I am on about and a  lot of the sentences I am writing especially because I am writing this during which some countries especially Brazilians which I learnt last year absolutely love having a nap in the afternoon which to be honest is exactly what I feel like doing now but that is also probably due to working the last three days. I know that one of those days cant have been on the weekend but that day was a Friday and the Friday and the whole weekend in general was extremely taxing because when you coach volleyball its so stressful because there’s nothing you can do that can give you control. I would love to be able to sub myself on court so I could make a dig or two or more especially get a block better than the kids did but I think if I was allowed to do that the kids wouldn’t have that experience that teaches them these important lessons. I did know a coach once who did that. But he was a bit of an idiot like that. Again I have to wok hard on my own ego.

I want Long Arms

It seems very doable. Everything would seem very doable if my biceps were longer. But I suppose again the reality I am offered I would not think anything different if i was born with abnormally prolonged arms. If everybody was born with long arms, and I’m speaking about if everyone had arms that had been 4 meters long, what could well be different? I think I would be a little more lazy because I wouldn’t really need to get up to do anything. It will be annoying because my arms would drag on the ground. I think I will have to wrap my arms permanently around my neck well, i wouldn’t hit anything when i will be walking. It sounds like a massive effort as I’m speaking about it now but I don’t think it would be because if we were born like this it wouldn’t be weird or perhaps uncomfortable.

It might be uncomfortable for the mum when the baby what food was in the womb if they already had ridiculously long arms so lets say that they can just grew at a rapid rate once someone was created. Everyone’s eyesight would have being better because when you would be typing on a computer you will have to be much further away, or maybe you can get around that problem by sticking your elbows out wide.

Maybe we are made perfectly for what we end up needing or perhaps we have just adjusted our universe around the body sizes we've. Maybe we should have many had bobble heads for wit sake.

Love a good movie

I wonder only had the option to watch movies with the rest of my life without having to review them or anything just watch and luxuriate in them and that’s all Used to do forever would I get bored of these? I’m sure I would but I’m sure if you did anything like that with virtually no break you would get done with it so I suppose what exactly I’m thinking here is you might need a balance in a few factors. I don’t even know why I’m typing this just as on that back looks show where fran doesn’t know what she’s allowed to be doing at her new work so she just typed for the keyboard with her tongue out there. Has everything been done which should be done and people, very much like movies these days are simply just repeating ideas and doing this slightly different. Will there be considered a truly new kind of movie today that’s never be achieved. Another maytrix or inceptions? Or has every thing that has possibly been done been done with regards to fresh ideas for the unique genres of movies. I imagine we won’t know until an individual comes u p with one particular. Maybe that is what I'm meant to be doing at this time. Come up with the greatest idea ever for the movie screen plot. It would probably involve a funny actor but really good action scenes that had been violent but kids could still go and watch the movie and that way I would be able to make so much money that I would be able to have my very own chocolate fountain in my backyard which I could swim in and everyone could well be happy but I suppose so it would start to look like other things I don’t know about.

Shoulder Injury

Another thing I have come to learn regarding injuries is that over the years they are often just muscle weakness. I suppose the very first serious injury I had was in year 12 when I had my shoulder impingement which stopped me lifting my arm up and down on my left side. Now while it eventually fixed itself through some pretty stringent theraband work, the injury repapered last summer and I could barely dig a ball on my left side which as you could imagine was quite frustrating. It was the same feeling. But I started doing some light back weights despite the pain because quite simply it was getting ester. The only time it felt really good was when I had the pump from doing the back muscles I could lift it with no pain. My trainers released my chest thought Boen therapy which felt great but the same problem would soon happen. I finally figured out that I hadn’t done chest weights in like forever so as soon as I started doing some bench press and cable flys and other exercises that are similar my shoulder problem has pretty much ceased to exist which is great. It still feels a little awkward back there in my shoulder blade even right now but its much more tame which is great. I hope to keep it like this for a very long time and never have the problem again. I suppose when I retire I will have to continue strength work to allow me to keep playing!

Fast Line Play

While my high line has been feeling quite good of late in training sometimes inside a game situation when I 'm running in square I over rotate it out when i try and push and expand my right shoulder up. While I think its still pretty sound like a good shot overall I imagine on my left high line I want to extend my hand upwards which will help me open up a tiny and help me not engage in the ball out.

I imagine, well I know that when i come in and hold my angle I realize its quite easy to play the actual shot but I think I want to do a lot of repetitions of this particular shot using Randy. I think by becoming aware of which way I’m facing When i need to play the shot accordingly so that it might become a body go on to shape the ball, or some sort of straight push, or whatever must be done. On top of this I think I want to continue to do lots and plenty of base hand work as well when I’m not only playing this particular shot but its counter which I know I’m decent at standing but jumping right now I think I give things away only extremely slightly even though I now understand that different shots are played somewhat differently and don’t think my opponents can detect these subtle differences. I can and will do whatever needs doing to beat them and In my opinion I can do this over left. It will happen.

Dig a volleyball

There's a fine line balance between attempting to win really badly an keeping a certain skill in your head. We have come to observe course that during a game you shouldn’t have to consider the technical aspect of a skill they should just come naturally if they don’t come naturally without you having to think about it, it quite simply means you've not done enough repetition. I think in the last couple of years I should never have done enough repetition of a few skills but even skills I’m good at perhaps should be thought of while your warmup for example. But then again I'm sure I know as I’m writing this I know what the answer is and also anything less I’m just cheating myself personally really. I need to do more repetitions of those problem areas such as setting and hitting certain shots. Maybe something I wouldn’t need to completely do too much repetition of is defense. That is not saying that I have mastered protection. No, I know I have definitely not mastered defense because balls likely to certain areas are dropping and I have to work on getting to these people! I believe I can and I'll. I need to also stand facing him, low with my hands up you need to making some digs against they who shall not be bands. I know it’s extremely hard and courage should be shown but I will do that! I refuse to not get digs on these people.

Knee Injury

The other niggling injury I had which started way back in 2011 was my knee. I had never really had any issues with my knee but it hurt to squat down and gave me a really sharp pain at the top of my shin or the bottom of my knee, depending on which way you were looking at it. My trainer poked around my VMO muscle and it nearly sent me through the roof except we were outside at the time and there was no roof but I suppose sending me through the roof is just an expression so it doesn’t really matter if it makes complete sense or not. While my quad tightness in general was obviously contributing to the problem I didn’t really get it fixed properly. But not through lack of trying. Again, all this summer I was warming up with and playing on it, lifting leg weights with it amongst other things. I think it was when one of my trainers suggested it was bottom up instead of top down the weakness thing once again popped into my head and I realized I hadn’t done much work on my claves for a very long time. I did I think 1 minute of skipping, probably not even that much and tried to do a single body Wight squat and for the first time in a very long time I felt absolutely no pain. Since then I have been doing calf raises and skipping a lot and I literally have had absolutely no pain whatsoever when warming up for volleyball, or doing squats or anything which is really good!

Time for a Big Tournament Win

I suppose the thing I really want at this point of my career is to possess a big win. I suppose I must have that feeling of finishing a tournament and being really happy. This is of course not an easy course of action and I feel like I have come close many times. Even with Owens injuries I still believe we could do it for sure. I think one I continue to develop a hard tough long and strong corner swing, got my stupid sharp angle swing as well obviously, that will open up most of the court. I think the difference are likewise I have a lot of confidence running through the center of the court and also behind to be a change up. I probably need to apply these slightly more of course but I will be feeling confident with them none the less!
I also feel my jump serving to the wind with this piped elbow could finally become a bit of a serving weapon because with this piped elbow it seems to be coming out slightly harder, but in addition for whatever reason I am finding it better to depth the ball a bit which suggests I can loop it much more into the wind which people have continually done to my opinion and my partner in crime. Even when there’s no wind, I have to have the courage to work with the jump serve. I did have that courage when serving to the wind from both ends within a really very good wind earlier in the year. The no wind jump serve has to be big step for me forward motion against these teams!

You can always be happy

It is best to be happy. The only person who is really happy knows that she or he is in charge of that. Nobody else should be accountable for whether you are happy or not. Sometimes I feel miserable and it’s absolutely ridiculous. I think more than eighty percent of the world want to have the life and opportunities i always have very graciously been provided. I have all the food I really could possibly ever want. The fact I can literally enter the next room and have drinkable clean water is definitely a ridiculous concept to several people. I think even people around me needs to be happier sometimes but like that saying I do believe I don’t know what their life journey is about. So even if they are exceedingly rich which I think would make a lot of people happy, they might not have each of the free time and joy I experience by not merely having a great family, buddies and girlfriend, but also other fun stuffs that are happening in my lifetime. So while I look rear, my ego regrets things My partner and i haven’t done but there’s a lot of people who have done those things and aren’t as happy so I suppose what I want to do is just live within the moment and be thankful for the truly amazing experiences I have experienced. I would not be as happy when i am now if not to the choice I made back then which at the time were what I thought the good thing. I suppose that’s the only thing I could do, make the best decision to the moment and trust the major man upstairs has my back that i know he has.

Be Charitable

I know that you can do nice things for ones fellow man. But I think sometimes people fall into the trap of once all over again, doing something nice for someone with regards to own gain. Once again completely attached with the ego of course. Some people strive to be seen to be doing nice things to others and as such people might go wow, how nice is indeed and so which makes so therefore feel good about themselves. At the same time they have of course ignored the person they helped in the meantime. Or perhaps if we are dealing with helping someone for spiritual pay back. Am I or others only helping someone so we are able to selfishly earn less time inside purgatory, gain better karma, obtain better universal rewards etc. Would these individuals be as nice to this kind of unfortunate person if there truly was no reward whatsoever, psychic or physical? I suppose the challenge is always to help the person in need purely in the interests of helping them and no additional reason. It’s a big obstacle, but I suppose that’s why the bible and lots of other religions say if you produce a big fuss about how that you are helping a certain person, you've already had your reward, which is what lots of other people crave, other lenders praise and attention. Meanwhile that poor person has been helped so so long as their dignity is intact Perhaps they don’t care either way that leads me to believe that what ever your motivations are, help unfortunate people anyway and keep working on yourself!

Which job?

Each person out there has at some stage wish they had a different persons job. I believe they must wish for more money, easier job, more glamorous work, more fun job, job with more prestige are are just some of the reasons sometimes some people would wish to have someone else’s job. I think there are some jobs out there thought that people would not are looking for. Cleaning toilets, looking for lions, volunteering for painful things, getting work done in extreme conditions just to name a few. I think however that sometimes you always want a career like these. I remember once i was a kid, I say kid, I mean teenager gonna high school, I remember getting of the bus every day and it was cold, drenched, sideways winds coming right journey Antarctic barren snow planes together with horizontal rain, on my solution to get in trouble at school for without having done my homework or something else I would be in issues. All I could think happen to be how good would it is usually to be that bus driver. Inside the particular warm heated bus, had his or her thermos of coffee, little carrier of lilies, all snug in their own little private section at the front end of the bus while every little bit the door would open only reserved for a glimpse into the exterior barren winter wasteland only to have the doors once again shut and enclose the heat comfort and security of the particular bus. Sometimes I wish I happens to be driving in that bus.

Memories

But the minute my homework was finished, or I wasn’t in trouble, or on the rare occasion I would actually be traveling to school for something amazing. I don’t think I wanted to be a bus driver as much as I did on the days where I knew school was not going to be overly great.

But that is of course one of the great reasons that shows us that sometimes our mind can play tricks on us. When people mainly adults go, oh I wish I could go back to school and how good was that time of my life. It’s really stupid because our minds seem to only want to remember the best parts of those memories. I suppose it’s a really good thing that our brain doesn’t focus on the bad times, only the good otherwise things wouldn’t be great. I think I have a fairly good brain in terms of this problem because someone says do I miss university and the answer would be absolutely no because I can remember the hours of pain and gnashing of teeth with those frustrating solid works programs deliberately there to try and frustrate me and annoy me.

Someone asks me to remember school and again, I only remember the moths and physics classes which I really didn’t enjoy at all. Second I rammer hanging out with mates and mucking around in class and a few of the good camps. But it doesn’t mean there weren’t crazy amounts of pain in the meantime.